Overview of my life

I entered this world on a cold windy afternoon. Born and raised in what many call The Big Apple, my childhood experiences in New York City are like no other. Thankful for every lesson, challenge, and blessing that each new day brings; I start my day by giving thanks and remembering that there is a higher power that governs me. I’m youngest of seven children and life has thrown me many curve balls, but I have learned to stay positive in the face of adversity or at least portray that I am strong.

In September 2001 at the age of nine, my life changed drastically. It was a few days after the September 11th tragedy when my father was diagnosed with Chronic Myeloma Leukemia (CML). The devastating news destroyed both my family’s spirit as well as my own. I feared that nothing could save my father’s life as the doctor informed us that he only had about six months to live. My father’s courage to get well was impeccable; he did not let the cancer take over his life, instead he took control of the cancer.

From the age of nine to my teenage years my life had changed drastically, I went from mommy and daddies little girl to their little slut. My relationship with my mother changed. She was no longer my best friend just my guardian. I didn’t know if she cared too much or didn’t care about me at all. I remember the black eyes, the welts, the bite marks she gave me.

The pain and emptiness I felt in my life led me to start doing things I had no purpose in doing. I was giving out my heart to all the wrong people. I was being used and abused and at the age of 14 I lost my virginity. I don’t regret it but it was a mistake. From there on out I was blackmailed, used, taken advantage of all because I thought I was in love with someone who didn’t even care about me. At the age of 15 I’m afraid I fell in love and never managed to fall out of it.

I had to change my surroundings, went to a different high school and made new friends. I thought by changing things like that would help me change my life but sometimes situations only worsened and made things worse. I was now a different person but I couldn’t say I was a better person.

My father’s CML has been in remission for the last four years, however, in August 2008, my Dad was diagnosed with Squamous Cell Carcinoma Cancer in his tonsils. When my father first learned the new diagnosis, he showed no fear. Shortly after, he began to change both physically and emotionally. The lost of 20 pounds in two weeks, hair loss, and change of skin color created a man that I no longer recognized. His condition worsened and he was soon diagnosed with Bradycardia and began treatment for his slow heart rate condition.

Witnessing my father’s worsening condition, not only diminished what little hope I had left, but caused me to develop a fear that no words can describe. Although my father has gotten better instilled in me is this fear that I’m going to wake up and not see him there and there’s no greater pain than that one. But I made it through high school and I made it out a live. I am now a college freshmen. And on here I plan on sharing not only what I’ve been through but what I’m still facing to let people know that no one is alone no matter how much it may seem like they are.

This is me. . .

Hello, my name is Mystery, because that’s what I am. I won’t reveal my identity. I’ll tell you who I am though. I’ll tell you about my life, raw and uncut, from the day I was born to the day I wished I would die. Nothing will be sugar coated because this is who I am and this is who I’ll show you.

While making this blog I was prompted as to whether I wanted to use a content warning due to adult content and that pissed me off ! There is no content warning on life. You will not be warned into what direction your headed so there shouldn’t be a content warning on here.

I am sensitive, seductive, intuitive, secretive, loving, and moody. I’m very outspoken and opinionated. I think for myself and I see myself as no one’s bitch. I have strong opinions and I will share them, but only when I feel inclined to. Generally speaking, I think before I speak.

I respect others, even if I don’t like them. I am not afraid to say what I want to say, I’m a blunt person and I’ll say whatever comes to mind at any given moment, because that’s who I am and that’s who people know me as.

It seems as if it’s easier to hate me than it is for anyone to love me. . . This is just a brief synopsis of who I am as individual, you’ll see who I really am through my writing.

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